|Champ and my mom at camp in 1952|
I want to hear from you exactly as to how your thoughts are moving through your mind though it tears my heart to read them. Still, I need to know, and you know that my feelings are the same.
All the pleasurable little things in life that you treasure up, you treasure up to tell someone, sometime, who will share that pleasure in the only way you want it shared, and who will appreciate them as much as you. All the little accomplishments you can't tell someone else because you feel they will think you too proud, you can tell to that special one who will feel as proud as you, and understand. All the burdens that come to be too much to try to resolve, you bring out to that special one, because he will take the problem over and solve it, or at least fret it through with you. In so many things in life you find the ever comforting thought that, when you want to, there is a place to turn. I do understand. Now that is gone. The things to tell can't get told. The problems seem insurmountable. The joy of life is truly in sharing and knowing that the opportunity to share has been taken away, the joy of things won't seem to come out. But surely there will be people to love, and people to share with you, and people to understand, some more deeply than you expect, although the high percentage of shallowness and preoccupation and self interest to be found in those around you will be discouraging. But you don't need many, you need only one, or perhaps I should say one for each interest. And there need not be a withholding. That is a thing that will hurt you more and more. Don't get introverted and withdrawn, but share your appreciations with others and realize that little gifts and attentions and words of praise and other thoughtful "out-goings" will keep you busy and make you happy. When something has been shared and fallen on sterile ground and failed to take root, don't be discouraged. Nature isn't that perfect and many seeds are scattered in to Earth's loose graveled mind to wither and fail to come to promise.